Keep Your Last Try as Your Ever Best! :)

I have always believed in trying everything (which i want) till its last bit. So, that i never get up one-day and say to myself, "wish would have tried a little more and alas! it would have been mine and only mine".

But, most of the times it never pays, in my case, it just never does! but, still i never budge to try, try and try.. why, can't it be just like that i left something in mid-way and expect some miracle to happen and solve all my problems and then can just vanish away when everything becomes alright. 

Or why can't i become some different person, who is just so careless to care about anything happening around. Why i always take the plunge to sort out things when i know the more i look for something, the more it eludes, leaving me asking more of it. 

Why can't i just sit back for a while and let the things take its course, why can't we just be mere spectator of our own lives. Why, i always take control of actions and become de-illusioned when actions start taking control of me!

This certainly gives me happiness that i don't have any guilt, which breeds in me day-by-day to tell me that you din't try and left all to someone else, who never knew what you want and did what you never wanted.

Still, i look back and see that somethings never change, somethings are best when left unexplained. Because, their answer lessens the charm of their pursue!