Obviously, I Know!

Obviously I know we won’t last,

But never knew, we would end up so soon!

Obviously I know things would change,

But never knew things would change now!

Obviously I know, love is forever,

But never knew our ‘ever’ would fade!

Obviously I know you love me,

But never knew that now you’ll love someone else too!

Obviously I know you had to choose,

But never knew you would never choose me!

Obviously I know you can die for my smile,

But never knew, I would now die in your tears!

Obviously I know it’s your new beginning,

But never knew it would be my end!

So many obvious, but still don’t know how long I will take to accept these obvious.

Journey of Solace

Life is to be tread alone.
My fear is mine
My joys could be yours
But my *pain will always be mine.

Life is to be tread alone.

When you're living it, you know it would end;
When it ends you know, you missed living it.

Life is to be tread alone.

Our hands hold each other
The walk between the trees
Till leaves turned brown

Life is to be tread alone.

*pain : Like joys, sorrows can be shared. But like unsolicited suffering, pain can never be shared.

On a beautiful rainy afternoon sipping coffee with a friend brought a topic of discussion, wherein she talked about how her young sister is her priced possession (she called her as her Good luck Charm). Conveying the idea that things go wrong around her when her younger soul is not around. But my eyes wandered and stuck on a thought - "Is there someone guiding me too. Can I also be the one to bring light in someone's life".

Lucky Charms

As I look back I realized my luck charms have always been invisible rays shining on me through every thick and thin. My closest of friends never wished me luck before an interview; were not possibly part of my soul full of joys or sorrows. Yet I know that it was their belief I was able to make all that happen and pass through troubled waters.

Isn't this invisible support of our loved ones around can also be tagged as our good luck charms. Why do we need to put words around the oblivion. Blessings are always given in feelings and not in writing. After all words are only sounds to express your feelings. Surely, my heart agreed that not all feelings need  corrugated dimensions around them.

Feelings touch you deep down and you need that thread of constant - touching to keep yourself floating. You can't use that same card of 'words' every time to tell someone that you feel for them. Definitely yes, you can use the same set of feelings to transcend that one is special.

I can hold on to that special hug by a closed one; which said nothing but communicated much.

And these unsaid blessings are the most precious ; precious enough to be cherished for life.

So next time, you want someone to accomplish the success of hardships;  just walk up to them, bring them close and cover them in your arms - to communicate to the universe around that they are special and they should always get the best.

This would be my concoction of wishing the best for you.

What would be yours :)

Soon I'll find out. Because everybody has its own path to tread to stay with us even when they are not there with us.

Someone watching over us all the time! 

Perfectly Imperfect!

Am I seriously imperfect? Or I should say that I’m perfectly imperfect. But, isn't everyone’s imperfect. Aren't imperfections are one’s which drive us to do something perfect.

But, who decides what is perfect; can ever my chiseled-cut perfect life be named as badly designed by someone else. Will I get hurt, if tomorrow someone tells me that you know nothing, you haven’t known anything and you are not even worth to know.

Someone wise once said, that pen is mightier than a sword; but, I feel that our words are sharper than this misinterpreted sword. Words give cuts and wounds which are invisible in nature but gives pains even worse than a toothache.

I can erase the words written, write them again, But can I take back my words once out from my mouth. Answer we all know. Then why we think twice before writing anything but say anything to anyone while proudly putting our minds off-record.

Thanks for reading :)

Nameless Days!

Its about one of those days when you like your brother's friend only to realize he's way too mature and already has someone by his side.

His voice breaks the silence of my room.. I look back reluctantly and find him standing in the doorway looking at me cautiously, suddenly I close the chat window on my laptop screen and look back to find him but, he sits beside me in the meanwhile, giving me a hint that he's here to stay for long to discuss something longer than the word itself..

Smriti, what are you doing ? Nothing... Just checking some mails... I mean chatting too... You have so much time to waste, why can't you take your tomorrow's interview seriously and use that internet to increase your knowledge about the company. Bhaiya, i already know about it... Can’t read the same things again and again, doing that vanishes my natural knowledge by default in me... That, wasn't a joke enough for him to smile.. reading his stern look, i reach to one of the search engines. But, God is rarely great on me, he was in a mood to discuss tomorrow's programme. So, I asked... "How will we go tomorrow?" Of course, I’ll take you, but I have to meet one of my friend who's here from Bangalore. But, No I’ll cancel that to accompany you. Don’t worry!

I kept quiet, not wanting him to cancel his schedule because of me, but, before, I could say anything... he yaps, Kanu can't we take him along with us, because he also wants to roam around in Delhi as he hasn't seen much of the city and Gurgaon is a nice place with many malls and good eating joints, we will leave him there till the time we get free from your interview and then can pick him on our way back.. What say ? (To whom it appears a common phrase, you must be informed that its my brother's pet phrase, after completion of every thoughtful sentence, he asks for opinion from others with the help of this and only this phrase).. This, phrase of his makes me think every time, even if I don't want to..

So, I declare with a hmm... Ok... I don't have much problem... MUCH.. He yaps.. I mean... I wouldn't mind sharing my car, my songs, and my talks while on way... It means yes... Ok I’ll inform him... Fine, so, I see you tomorrow at 10 am, as we have to reach the place by 11 am.. And, he leaves... But, my mind is on work wondering who this friend can be.. Realizing that I forgot to ask the name of the stranger with whom I gave the consent to share my songs... my wasteful talks... I shout! Bhaiyya!! He was just stepping out of the room, comes back and says he's... Obviously my 'friend' you know.. 

Now, good night... 

I'm smiling.. Yes I am.. Why... Gosh! I am even smiling, while writing this... Can't he accompany us from this very minute to the end...? Tomorrow seems to be so far... I saw him last when he came to visit us with bhai... When, I saw him for the first time and said, gosh! He’s so sexy... I mean good looking… Though a little short, so what, I have always liked salman khan alikes, and getting him was a better way to reach your reel crush in real life... 

My alarm wakes me up at 8:30 am. It would have been 9:30 am, if he wouldn't have been accompanying us.

Reaching to the bathroom, I could see my face glitter, hiding that was impossible... But, as someone said, nothing is impossible, So, here I say, that flowery looking face came down to kareena kapoor's size- zero, when my bro, shouted from back, "All set for interview kid" !!

I decided to run through some company profile pages to act busy while on our way... We had to pick him from the Rajiv Chowk's metro station. I was clouding high to catch a glimpse of his. Bhai, stopped the car, we moved out and I rubbed my eyes a little as I saw not one but two people.. And, that made me rub a little more as the other one was a girl. He looked at me, smiled a little as I said hi.. We sat in the car to start our crowded journey (I wish the crowd was on road rather than sitting next to me).

They appeared friends, but, then you never know as no one comes with a relationship tag... I decided not to spoil my priced interview because of this... I start to read when suddenly he says "Guys talk, my girlfriend's getting bored, winking at her"... That pierced my ears leaving me stoned for a second... I looked back where that girl was sitting trying to give her a proper look this time and find what's better in her or in short, is she better than me... She smiles at me and says 'Hi'... Of course, I replied, that too with a smile but couldn't catch her eyes and pretended to look outside and turned in front again to act busy and drench myself in the pool of that 'I-better-crack-this-interview' state.

Thanks! for getting yourself involved in one of my funny situation. (atleast now when I look back) :)